Emotion Project 5

Emotion Project is fiction.

  It is 9:13 a.m. now. I must have fell asleep again. I thought I was up and running in the park. I must have been dreaming. What was the plan for today? Yes, the souvenir shopping. Ah, this trip seems quite useless after I found out the Japanese lady is gone. Well, the trip itself is only for 5 days anyway. I expected too much out of this trip. I wish I were not eavesdropping when Sue Miller was talking with dad then, but it gave me the idea why I have such a different appearance than my friends at school. I remember I was in torment about my apprearance. Something must be wrong. I didn't quite fit in. I was floating around other classmates or friends. Of course, they wouldn't treat me in a bad way. Well, sometimes izime can happen, but I was never in that miserable situation with this appearance. Yet, I was wondering about my eyes. My cheekbone, hair, especially nose. Once Hitomi said, "Haruna san, your nose looks like a Hollywood movie star nose." After Sue Miller visited us, all my friends knew what my stroy was, but they tried to tell me anything indirectly.

  Hitomi's expression was the mildest one. Even though I got hurt or painful whenever people say something about Sue Miller's visit, I don't remember what they have said to me. Perhaps, I tried to forget about them so hard. I tried too much. I forget even good parts of my memory with my friends at school. That's a shame.

  Sue Miller's visit was the worst, because I didn't get any detail from her, but got all rumors from classmates who had no idea what kind of story actually delivered by Sue. I didn't want to mention too much about myself, either. I just let people imagine whatever they feel like imagining. Most of the people imagined right one-that I was adopted. Others imagined horrible ones, but I never got this part directly to my ears. Interestingly, people talked about me without me, even though it was related to the story about me.

  My parents asked me if I would like to go abroad to study when I became a middle school student. I thought I would be thrown away again, if I go aborad. I had to survive as Haruna Sato. I didn't want to be Julie Miller, or something else. I insisted and I stayed all my life in Tokyo. Of course, according to Sue, I am born in Chicago. My parents told me I was 2 months old when they saw me in Chicago. They applied for their baby adoption long time ago through adoption Japan while they were studying in Chicago, but the best option happened where they were living rather than Japan. I became a part of Satos family after 2months when my parents finished their last semesters right before Christmas.

  Of course, my birth story was different before Sue Miller came to see me. I was born in summer in the middle of my parents' important dissertations. Mom couldn't get her degree. I thought I created such a headache to my parents. I didn't know that she got her degree, otherwise she wouldn't be teaching at a university in Japan now. When I was ten, everything seems just right to me. Soon, all the stories I had went other directions after Sue Miller's visit, but I wasn't too shaken. I just thought it's some sort of play people pretend to play with children. I realized that this play is not so much fun, when I had to find Sue Miller within 5 days here, though.